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Monday, 16 January 2017

The body of Christ

My husband and I were recently trained to be Eucharistic ministers. This means we were trained to offer the body and blood of Christ, during Eucharist (communion), to fellow parishioners.

This past Sunday evening I was on the schedule for the first time.

As the service proceeded, I was going over my training and wondering if I was going to royally mess it up. I was consumed with this and then the time came...

I made my way over to the line -up of Eucharistic ministers and eventually to my spot. As the first parishioner came forward and I heard myself verbally offer to them, "Body of Christ".

At this moment, the enormity of what was happening washed over me. The body of Christ offered for you and for me is the greatest gift ever given!  And I was privileged to offer this to my fellow parishioners.

I felt tears welling up in my eyes. What grace is this? That Christ died on the cross to cover our sins and He left us a way to be reminded of that every time we participate in the Eucharist.

I continued to offer to each parishioner the "Body of Christ" and in my mind I added offered for you! Wow,

I am overwhelmed with this role I will continue to participate in. What grace is this?!

Thursday, 29 December 2016

Searching for a job that fits

In the generation before me, people would stick with a job no matter how bad the situation was. They would stick it out and retire after 30, 40, 50 years. I know many who were miserable but never considered changing jobs, positions, industries. I could not do that. No.. I refuse to do that.

In my working career, I know that I have grown and changed with each job I have held. I have learned more of what I am good at. I have gained new skills. I have learned what type of boss I do not work well with and what kind of boss I do work well with.

I have learned that I cannot stay in a job that is mentally/emotionally or physically unhealthy. This is a challenge for me, because my heart beats to help others be healthy (mentally and emotionally and physically). So I want to stay. I want to help....but this is not always conducive to my mental health.

As I am once again searching for job, I must take all this into consideration. I must consider what in my working career has been life giving.. and what has been draining. I must consider what things I have accomplished to the praise of others and what things I have not done so well at.

I have not failed often in my life but the failures have been intense and I seek to learn from them and become more of who I created to be.

As Robert and I are expecting our first child, I find that I don't want a job that will take me away from my child. I find that I want to put all that I am and all that Christ has created in me, my life experiences and my relationships into being the best wife and mother that I can be.

Being a wife and mother is not the sum of my skills or passions, but at this time, it is where God has me. This is the job that fits where God has planted me now.

Tuesday, 17 May 2016

life just keeps ticking by....

From time to time, I stop and realize that time is just marching on. 

I am not standing still as it marches, I am falling in line.

      I find myself wanting to change the course,
            or the scenery
                 or at the very least my intentionality in the "march".

Even the word "march" does not sit well with my soul. 
I have learned that to truly live, 
I need to learn to truly rest.
I am in a continuous learning journey...

 This world clamors for success, striving, performance, and getting more done in less time.

I hear these words of the Lord, they resonate in my soul:

"Cease striving and know that I am God." 

 “Come to me. Get away with me and you’ll recover your life. I’ll show you how to take a real rest. Walk with me and work with me—watch how I do it. Learn the unforced rhythms of grace. I won’t lay anything heavy or ill-fitting on you. Keep company with me and you’ll learn to live freely and lightly.”

Saturday, 28 November 2015

Advent and Christmas

Years ago I began incorporating the Advent season into my life. 
I began using an advent wreath with candles that I lit each corresponding Sunday. 
I found weekly readings and songs that went with each Sunday of Advent.

Last year I was honored to put together Advent readings/meditations myself for our reFresh ministry. This took me to a deeper place of appreciating the season of Advent. 

These practices helped the whole of the Christmas time to not be stress filled and exhausting to me.  I found myself more aware of the miracle that Christ's birth was and is. 

In the Catholic church we have Advent season as the beginning of the new church calendar year. Advent season ends on Christmas Day and Christmas Season goes from Christmas Day to Epiphany!

I love that Advent is meant to remind me of the longing and need for Christ and the hope of His arrival. And that the Christmas season of joy begins on the day we celebrate the birth of Christ and goes until the day we commemorate the Wise Men's arrival to meet Christ. 

I am excited to begin Advent tomorrow. Sunday. 

Tuesday, 27 October 2015

When it feels like there is not enough time

I was in a local coffee shop recently and overheard a girl asking her friends to pray that she would have more time and energy.

I smiled to myself as I walked outside with this thought, "we are given 24 hours in a day. No more, no less." 
We are called to be stewards of the time given to us. 
If I pray for more time, it really means I am not prioritizing well or I am attempting to do more than is feasible. 
Wouldn't it be more in line with Christ's call on my life to pray for wisdom in how to steward the time given to me? 

I have been thinking a lot about time lately. 
The hours given to me are 24. 
In each 24 hour period I must work, sleep and eat.. and any left over time is family, friends, church, taking care of myself, etc... 

I was blessed the past 10 plus years to have jobs that had flexible hours. 
 This new job requires I go to an office at least 4 days a week for at least 8 hours a day. 

I know this is normal for most people, but it has been a big adjustment for me. :) 

I have had to re-arrange my priorities and my expectations. 
Isn't that what we all must do when we encounter big changes in our lives? 

A new job
A new house
A new relationship
A loss 
A gain

All major changes in life demand that we look at our priorities and how we go about them. Are we making the important things the important things? Is God first? 

When I was a Mary Kay consultant (oh so many years ago...), I was taught that it should be God first, Family second, Career third. I actually still go by this. Not always well... but my relationship with the Lord is much more important to me than any other relationship. My family and my friends are very dear to me and my job is generally something I must do to pay bills. As much as I put my passion and heart into any job, it is still not as important as the people in my life.

And how do I prioritize my health in all this? If I don't eat well, drink water, exercise, I do not have energy to do anything else well. 

Oh Lord, please give me wisdom and courage to prioritize and value this precious gift of time that you have designed.